Wednesday, February 24, 2016

A Moment

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The last several months have been ripe with daily discoveries in my work, my motherhood, my hopes and my art.  Failures.  Frustrations.  Joys.  Fears.  Unreasonable hopes, and many almost-just-right successes.  Since we opened Craft South in May of last year my schedule has been free of the more predictable format that the previous ten years have enjoyed.  In most sentences the word "free" implies something good.  Here, well, I suppose it is all a matter of how you look at it.  I am learning so much about what it means balance family and work.  So much.  I thought I knew, and then I realized that I had no idea until I threw a really heavy weight on one side of that scale.  For months, I have been pushing my foot down on the family side as hard as I can to weight the scale in favor of the people that I love, but not lose sight of the work that I love.  I suppose the greatest goal that I have is that the family can support me, and that the work will support my family, not just tangibly, but as a positive force.  That is it, right?  I think so.  I am so very grateful for both, but which of us professes that gratitude of motherhood while you are being puked on?  No hands?  Right.  Well, I suppose the work gratitude is the same.  It does puke on you.  Then later you realize how lucky you are to be puked on.  What was I saying?

Since 2009 I have written a January recap of the previous year, and this year, I just could not muster the strength to see 2015 for what it was..... it seemed so many years all in one.  Our family life with all of it's ages, directions, personalities seems to have grown bigger than any summary I can attach to it.... my work life too, has sprouted arms and legs and is running in directions that I am still trying to have the lung capacity for, but I remain engaged and excited about the changes.  I suppose I am still learning how to succinctly talk about it in bits here, and like many of us, I am trickling so many words and images through Instagram on an almost daily basis that I wonder about redundancy and all that.  I guess, placing thoughts here, is not redundant as much as it is just a different investment, and all together different piece of writing to look back on... and maybe less affected by the .25 second attention between the finger swipe of all the other images and words and #s.  Ahhh.  Slow. Down. Us.  I love Us.  But I want Us to slow down.  

If I CAN attach a single thought to 2015, and even the past few months, it is that I was forced to realize how much slower and in person is good.  My home became free of an online shipping process that made it belong to my family in a way that it has not since 2007.  That made each moment here a more dedicated moment.  So even the work that I invest in my home studio is now quieter, albeit busier with the addition of Craft South.  But that place, which is just about 10 minutes from my house.... it is a place for me to walk into where I engage my own craft and that of others in a tangible way, that is not a screen or a hashtag, or a FB post or an IG promotion.  Craft South is people and processes that I can see, and smell and hear, and feel a part of.  So the work and the home are better because of 2015.  Not easier.  But better.  

I have been fortunate to take part in several interviews in the past months where I got to take advantage of the long format of reply to questions from women that I really admire.  And we also made a little bio-doc of Craft South that I am really proud of.  Here are links to all of them:


I hope that the investment in the places above helps if you miss me here.  When I am conducting my days, I often think about this place and the voices that have so kindly responded to me here since 2006.  And the collective support that I still feel, despite my long stretches of silence, is a meaningful part of my creative conscience, so thank you for that.

2016, so far so good, you.  The image above reflects a very nice reward for the years of investment in my career and my family..... it is me as the proud mama of a gorgeous, talented girl, who just presented her first collection of fabric with Free Spirit while we were @ Quilt Con last week.  Miss Juliana, you are a rare and wonderful person, and you can do whatever you wish with your gift, because it is an honest and beautiful gift.  I am so happy that I watched your first official introduction to this industry on my mother's birthday.  I know that she is so proud of you, because I feel it pour right through my heart to you.

(and happy birthday to my dad today, too!)
(sob.smile.) xoxoAM

24 comments:

  1. You are such a great mom. It is really something, isn't it, seeing our big kids' success - it hits you right in that same spot as saying that first word or taking that first step. Slower and in person. What a great mantra. XO

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  2. Beautiful in every way, this post. I do miss hearing from you here as often, but you're where you need to be and that's more important than anything else. Enjoy the ride this year, wherever it takes you!

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  4. This. I feel like you were reading my mail! Thanks for the update and for continuing to bring us gorgeous things to sew with! And congrats to Juliana!

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  5. Hi, so great to read your words, love your "fibs and fables" collection and all the others as well! Never stop designing these wonderful fabrics! Much success for all your projects.

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  6. God bless! good to read this, yes, so busy! and beautiful!

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  7. Thank you for your time and genuine-ness.
    I'm excited for your new collections coming out soon; they look divine!

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  8. I know that myself along with others wish we could move to Nashville simply to be a part of the living, breathing entity that is "Craft South". It gives me hope that more people will adopt this model and there will be a place someday where I can walk in and feel at home, inspired, and ready to create.

    You have done something truly amazing in that.

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  9. Well done Juliana, what a fantastic achievement. And well done you too, you're an absolute inspiration. I'm wishing you a very good year. CJ xx

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  10. You are such an amazing woman, Anna! You too, have your ups and downs and challenges balancing family and work, but you seem to do it all with such grace. Now it's Juliana's turn to shine in the spotlight of designing fabric...it means you have set a wonderful example for your daughter. Congratulations to both of you!

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  11. Thanks for always sharing your heart and being transparent. You are truly a gem in the industry. Congratulations on your success as a daughter, wife, mother and entrepreneur, I often wonder how you do it all with such grace! Congratulations to Juliana, look forward to seeing her collection. By the way, I will be visiting you at Craftsouth some day, a friend is moving nearby!

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  12. I was just thinking the other day how long it had been since I'd seen a blog from you. Thanks for the update, There are still some of us who don't have smartphones and therefore can't use instagram :)

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    1. Yes, I get it. IG is visible on the plain ole web too :)

      https://www.instagram.com/annamariahorner/

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  13. It's always nice to hear your voice. I watched/listened to all those podcasts and videos. Thank you for giving that time. You are an inspiration to me.

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  14. So glad that things are working out for your enterprises both family and professional. It IS good to see people in person as it turns out (sometimes)! It is a GREAT feeling to see your children blossoming into their own spaces, and may very well be the biggest reward of parenthood.

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  15. Beautifully beauty-full!

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  16. I always love your posts and I think the distance between them just makes them that much more special. :)

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  17. Such a treat when there is a new post here! In truth I am in awe of all you get done and that you do it with such grace and genuine warmth. It was such a pleasure meeting you at QuiltCon and to see the amazingly talented and beautiful Juliana as well. May 2016 be a wonderful year for you and yours Anna, thank you for letting us have a peek into your process, family and heart.

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  18. it is so wonderful to see you hear again. your writing is one of many gifts. i am so excited for you and all of the beautiful things happening with craft south. you are such an inspiration anna maria horner!!

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  19. Was awesome to see you and your Julianna at Quiltcon. You are doing just what you need to do! Bravo, Mom. Best to you and your family.

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  20. Wonderful words from a wonderful woman! So great to have met you in real life at QuiltCon. I could see your passion for your craft, your business, and especially your talented daughter over those few days. Enjoy 2016 and the opportunities you'll have to invest in both family life and maker life! xoxo

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  21. It is nice to hear from you here, Anna Maria. When I think of 2015, I will always think of Eleni. But then, I will always think of Eleni. period. Thank you again for the icon you sent. It is always nice to know that others cared for her too.

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  22. yes. and beautiful. and hugs n love all around your precious family and work.. xoxo

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  23. As always you put a lot of perspective into your life! I too got to meet you at QuiltCon this year and meet your daughter at the CraftSouth booth. Joyful to see you all working together. But seriously, I will never ever forget the most hilarious of all #theonethatgotaway hahaha! When you occasionally have a down moment, just think of that craziness and laugh out loud! lots of love, Pam

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