Tuesday, May 28, 2013
My beautiful, courageous, Spirit-filled mama, Mary Lynn, breathed her last breath Friday, May 17th at just before 9 in the morning. Her face aglow in sunlight. Her hand in mine. In most ways I have not left that place. That room were I spent so many days at her side. There are no words. I've written many down, only by hand. For weeks my family and I have been other versions of ourselves. Our strongest and our weakest versions. I just don't know yet what the difference is between strength or weakness. Or what the steps are to getting back to where I know I will eventually be again. I don't know. It is devastation. It has not been without Beauty. Not without Blessing. They abound in the bitterness, and I sleep each night centered on that radiance and pray for it to never leave me. Not leave my side.
Pray with me, that the Resplendence of this beautiful woman will stay at my side. It's all I want. We await her 13th grandchild any day.
We have received much, much, deep love in all forms from so many and it keeps us afloat. There is too much to say, and trust it will be said. It is part of myself, and I will become more generous as it suits my fragility. One day. And then another. And another.
love to you and yours, xoxoAnnaMaria