My beautiful, courageous, Spirit-filled mama, Mary Lynn, breathed her last breath Friday, May 17th at just before 9 in the morning. Her face aglow in sunlight. Her hand in mine. In most ways I have not left that place. That room were I spent so many days at her side. There are no words. I've written many down, only by hand. For weeks my family and I have been other versions of ourselves. Our strongest and our weakest versions. I just don't know yet what the difference is between strength or weakness. Or what the steps are to getting back to where I know I will eventually be again. I don't know. It is devastation. It has not been without Beauty. Not without Blessing. They abound in the bitterness, and I sleep each night centered on that radiance and pray for it to never leave me. Not leave my side.
Pray with me, that the Resplendence of this beautiful woman will stay at my side. It's all I want. We await her 13th grandchild any day.
We have received much, much, deep love in all forms from so many and it keeps us afloat. There is too much to say, and trust it will be said. It is part of myself, and I will become more generous as it suits my fragility. One day. And then another. And another.
love to you and yours, xoxoAnnaMaria
So happy for you that you were able to spend those moments with your mother. Wishing you a peaceful heart and meaningful memories to carry with you always. xo Sarvi
ReplyDeleteI don't have the right words for this. Just know that I, and many others, are thinking of you and your family. (((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteThese are beautiful words you have shared with us; thank you for that. Blessings to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your family's loss, Anna Maria. My thoughts and prayers are with you. x x
ReplyDeleteAnna Maria, you were in my prayers just today. You will stay there, even as you bring new life into the world.
ReplyDeleteAnd you are of her, so the radiance carries forth in your heart and veins and surely in all the sweet children she so loved. My prayers to you and yours.
ReplyDeleteAnna, you know she will always be by your side, and I'm sure she will be your children's constant guardian angel. I'm sure her beautiful spirit is surrounding you right now.
ReplyDeleteSending love and strength to you and yours! Thinking of you and wishing you strength as you bring your sweet baby girl into the world, any day! Your little children will bring you comfort!
ReplyDeletexo
oh, so many of us grieve her right alongside you. Even reading her blog made us love her and your whole family more. It will be beautiful to watch how she lives on in all of you who carry her immense talent and love for her family and her world.
ReplyDeletePS....meant to say your children! Not just the little's, but ALL of your sweeties!
ReplyDeleteAw, I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my dad last year and I know how this feels. Sending you love and strength and beautiful memories of your mom who will always be with you in your heart.
ReplyDeleteSo very sorry for your loss!
ReplyDeleteWishing your family much love, peace, and healing. You are all in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteSo so sorry to hear of your loss. Many prayers, hugs and peace to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteso sorry. ♥ And prayers for you especially as you prepare to say hello, all the while saying goodbye.
ReplyDeleteMuch love to you my friend.
ReplyDeleteYou are in our prayers.
I'm so very sorry for your loss, Anna. I lost my grandmother, who was like a second mother to me, just over a year ago. In reality, it was like we lost her much earlier than that due to her Alzheimer's disease, which I feel robbed us of her last few years. I truly believe that she is always by my side, just like your mother is by yours, and always will be, as will yours.
ReplyDeleteSending you and your family, especially that sweet new baby girl of yours, lots of love, prayers, and my deepest sympathies.
xoxo
Sending you so much light as you walk this new path. Holding you and your family and your mama in my thoughts. And deeply hearing you as you share how you hold that radiance to you tightly.
ReplyDeleteHow often I visit your website, though seldom if ever comment. I cannot but imagine the sorrow you are feeling, but I immediately thought of one of my mother's favorite poems:
ReplyDelete"Into my heart's treasury
I slipped a coin
That time cannot take
Nor a thief purloin, --
Oh better than the minting
Of a gold-crowned king
Is the safe-kept memory
Of a lovely thing."
--by Sara Teasdale
I am so sorry for your loss...
Melody
What a lovely picture of your Mom. I know she was comforted by your presence ... she'll be missed by many.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your loss. What a blessing to be with your mama in those finale moments on earth. Five years ago I held my fathers hand as he took his final breath, my sister almost due with his third grandchild. I miss him every day, and feel his presence every day as well. Life is such a strange and beautiful journey, isn't it? You are in my prayers. <3
ReplyDeleteWell done. Peace to you and yours.
ReplyDeleteI lost mine a yr ago exactly. I have been given the grace to not feel the sting but only temporary loss ! We do believe we will see eachother again..I hope you will also do the same !!! Its hard to imagine her not being at her blog or with your family Im so sad for you!! Receive my deepest sympathy for you and yours..Izzy
ReplyDelete<3. beautiful.
ReplyDeleteSuch a life well lived. Such a daughter to have loved and be loved by. To see so many grandchildren, so well, and such fine examples of human beings. To be surrounded by love at her last. None could have passed more well.
ReplyDeleteSympathies to you and your family.
You will carry her in your heart forever--she will always be with you, but you will miss talking to her. This is how I feel about my mom, who died 2 years ago. I am so sorry for your loss. Healing takes time.
ReplyDeleteYour mother will be with you always. You shall feel her strength and comfort every moment of every day. She will live in you and every generation to come. I am so sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeletePraying for you and your beautiful family. May the Lord heal your hurting hearts. I hope lovely memories of your gorgeous mother stay with you and your children forever. xoxo
ReplyDeleteI love those words that you shared with us describing your mama, "....beautiful, courageous, Spirit-filled mama.." Wouldn't we all love to hear those same words spoken over us.... I'm quite sure that your own children use very similar words when describing you Anna. I will certainly pray that the resplendence of your mama will stay right beside you and that the One Who holds her now will comfort you in the days ahead. Many blessings.
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ReplyDeleteOh, Anna, I'm so sorry for you and your family's loss. A mother is a tremendous blessing to her children who will love her always.
ReplyDeleteA nation of women who you have welcomed into your family and heart mourn with you tonight, Anna Maria. Upon reading of your dream, a month ago, I have been worried, with no news, and knew there was a problem in your life. I am so glad for you and for your Mamma, that at the end, you were able to hold her hand in your own. You lose your mother and soon will bring a daughter into this world. Please know that I pray for you and shed tears for you and send you sympathy and strength for all that is to come.
ReplyDeleteSympathy, heartfelt prayers, caring thoughts.
ReplyDeleteMay you, and all her family, be lifted in love and compassion.
((hugs))
I'm sorry.
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This is such a beautiful post... your mama, with you in spirit now, would be so proud. I'm so sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteSo very sorry for your loss, and happy for the imminent arrival of your baby girl.
ReplyDeleteMi spiace molto per la tua perdita, ma sono convinta che la tua mamma e' sempre vicino a te e ai nipotini. Un abbraccio.
ReplyDeleteMarina
Blessings to you AMH.
ReplyDeleteMay light perpetual shine upon your beloved Mother.
I'm sorry for your loss, Anna.
ReplyDeleteLove from Brazil,
Helena
So sorry for you. Love and prayers to you.
ReplyDeleteIt becomes less painful as the years pass, but I still feel the miss so deeply. You'll see a lot of things that you forgot to ask or to do with her, but you will also see so much things that come from her, everywhere, everyday, in your actions or in the faces of your family, that are comforting... I wish all your family is together and show love to help each of you.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your loss, beautiful post.
ReplyDeleteSuch a dignified and human post. Thinking of you at this sad time.
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. My daughter was born six months after the sudden, early loss of my dad. I know how bittersweet this time is. God bless.
ReplyDeleteAnna, I am so very sorry to hear of your loss. I can only imagine how difficult this time is with her departure and the imminent arrival of your sweet baby. My thoughts and prayers are with you and all your loved ones. xoxoxo -E
ReplyDeleteAnna, prayers your for you and your family. God Bless you.
ReplyDeleteWith thoughts and prayers of blessings and healing. May you each continue to feel her love that does not end but spreads and grows within each of you.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry. I can't imagine. I will pray for all of your tender hearts during this time.
ReplyDeleteShe's beside you and she will never leave. She won't. Don't worry about that one. So sorry for you and your family. I join literally hundreds of people with prayers and hope for some peace in your heart.
ReplyDeleteMay your wonderful memories help you moving forward. So sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeletepraying with you and for you, xo
ReplyDeleteHow lucky your mama was to have you for a daughter. I was by my mom's side when she passed 9 years ago, and she gives me strength every day. It is never easy to lose a parent, but draw comfort by the fact she was surrounded by your love.
ReplyDeleteMy condolences... you have the memories and soon a new baby for the future.... it is what life is all about. You have my prayers for continued peace.
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Zoi se sas.
ReplyDeleteAnna Maria I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my own Mama five years ago on May 26th. Sometimes the pain still feels so raw and fresh. Thinking of you and your family at this time.
ReplyDeleteAnna Maria, I am so sorry at the passing of your beautiful mother. Sincere condolences to your family.
ReplyDeleteWhat an honor it was for you to hold her hand as you helped her move from this life to the next. Love and prayers for you.
ReplyDeleteEternal rest grant unto her, O Lord; let perpetual light shine upon her, and may she rest in peace.
ReplyDeleteAnna Maria ~ so very sorry to hear of the loss of your precious Mother.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and yours.
It is 20 years since my mother died and I can honestly say to you that the comfort of a good mother never leaves you.
ReplyDeleteThis brings tears to my eyes, as it did when I saw you post this on Instagram. I have been praying for you and your family so much... each picture of the view from her side a reminder to do so. May God bless you with strength and comfort during this time. xo
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear of your loss. Best wishes for all the days coming.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your loss. I will pray that her radiance will remain with you forever, as you are hoping. I can only hope that everyone suffering the loss of a loved one can feel this blessing during these darkest hours (Sorry if all this sounded clumsy, I am not a native speaker). Lots of love to you, Anya
ReplyDeleteWhat a range of emotions you must be experiencing right now. As you await the birth of your baby, the beginning of life, only to endure the ending of another life. A life that gave you life. But knowing in your heart that she is more alive now than she has ever been must bring you some comfort. May the promise of the Father, that He never leaves us or forsakes us, bring you and your beautiful family comfort today and the many days ahead.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your terrible loss. She was a wonderful mother. I will pray that she will remain vivid to you and your family. I'm so glad your baby is well...I've started several notes to you, knowing something was amiss and didn't know what to say. Linda
ReplyDeleteChrist is Risen,Anna Marie! May these words comfort you and your family during this time of grief. Your mama had a very blessed ending to her life- she was prepared spiritually and was surrounded by prayer and her beautiful family.
ReplyDeleteAnd God has been so good to grant you a precious life, your baby girl to help you remember His mercy and love. May this little one be just as special and loving as her yia yia. May God continue to bless your entire family.
So terribly sorry for your loss. Prayers and love to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteOh, Anna Maria. I am so, so sorry to hear of your mother's passing. I cannot imagine how difficult it must be to lose your precious mother. I am sending you love and light and support and prayers and friendship to help carry you through. And I am thinking of the perfect new life within you, and hoping that blessing can help too.
ReplyDeleteMemory Eternal! May God remember your mother in His Kingdom!
ReplyDeleteGrief is hard for us here left behind ~ will light a candle for you all today and say prayers.
What a gorgeous woman! I am so sorry for your loss and wish all the best for you and your family.
ReplyDeleteI was with my Dad when he died. What a powerful experience (to say the least!) Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear this -- much peace and love to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteOh, Anna, I'm so sorry to hear this. Looking at the picture above, I can see your daughters in her smile. Sending love to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteBlessings to you and your family. Your mother's spirit will never leave you nor be far from you - she is so clearly in all that you are, and in everything you create. It must be so so hard to have her gone in person, but your beautiful family and talents will keep her spirit close at hand.
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family. My grandfather passed right after my daughter was born. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of him. There is some comfort that my youngest son acts just like him, even loving the same music he did, we like to think that some of his spirit is in him.
ReplyDeleteI hope you find a comfort like this. XOXO
Anna, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at this difficult time.
ReplyDeleteXX
Eternal be her memory ~
ReplyDeleteDearest Anna, may your Mama's memory be a blessing that lasts throughout your life. Such amazing grace you have, as I am certain that your Mama also had. Much much love as you travel this journey of love, loss and new life.
ReplyDeletesuch sadness and such beauty all at once. i really can't imagine losing my mother.
ReplyDeletei'll hold you and your family in my thoughts and prayers, especially as you welcome a precious new life so soon.
Maybe you just need to feel and not speak or write. (Although you do express yourself beautifully even at this difficult time). I lost my father to cancer three weeks before my twins were born. Not the same as losing a mother at all, but ten years on those two events are strangely disconnected. As soon as the babies were born, my maternal instincts took over and I coped and enjoyed them. It has always been a huge comfort that although my father never met them, he did 'know' them and I hope you find that too. I am so very sorry for your loss, but wish you strength and joy for the arrival of your new baby.
ReplyDeleteso sorry for your loss. My prayers are with your and your family.
ReplyDeleteMy sincere and deepest condolences to you and your family. I am so sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your loss, Anna. Sending love to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteMuch love and best wishes for peace and strength. You will know she's with you, welcoming your child.
ReplyDeleteStrength, peace, and comfort is my prayer for you and your family. xo
ReplyDeleteAnna,
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for the loss of your mother. I, too, lost my mother and I can tell you this: She will always be in your heart. You will always feel her presence. She will know your children through the love you have for her in your heart. I wish you strength and joy in your new baby's arrival.I still miss my mama and you will yours but know that she, like my mom, would never want to see you sad and she would give all her strength and peace to you. I am so glad you have your family and a new one coming to look forward too. Much love and prayers in my heart for you and your family. xo jan
oh Anna, I'm so sorry. She'll never leave you, always to live on in your heart. ~ Jessica
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry you lost your mother. My deepest condoleances.
ReplyDeleteYour mother will always always live on in your heart and the hearts of all who loved her. Sending prayers your way that you feel the peace that she now enjoys.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your loss and add my thoughts and prayers for you and your family. I also wish you a safe and speedy delivery of the little one you are expecting.
ReplyDeleteI am really sorry Anna Maria. I remember when your mom started her blog and how supportive she's always been of you. The fact that you are such a good mother leads me to believe that she was your best teacher! You will be in our prayers for comfort. Sending a hug from PA. Love, B.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your loss. My Mother passed away 11 years ago and she is still with me today when I need that extra support. I know you will have that from your Mom as well those bonds don't fade and the spirit stays. XO
ReplyDeleteI am devastated to hear of your loss. I was just looking at your blog yesterday to see if perhaps you had the baby since I had not seen any updates. I am so sorry that the news is so different. Bless you and your family.
ReplyDeleteI'm so saddened to hear of your loss. This is such a difficult time for you and your family. My prayers are with you here in Israel.
ReplyDeleteMuch love to you at this difficult time. So glad you were able to be with her.
ReplyDeleteI'm touched by your sweet words. And awed by your strength. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your darling family.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear this news. I know you two were very close. All my love — Heather
I am so very sorry.
ReplyDeleteMany years after my grandmother passed away, my mother told me about a healing moment she had right after my grandmother's passing. My mother was folding laundry feeling very distraught, and heard a voice say "do not worry, she is with you". My mother felt deep comfort and I hope you too will feel comfort from your mother's ever presence. Sending good thoughts to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteMay you find comfort. Grief is a terrible thing at times, and at others a peaceful. But it is there and deserves our attention. Your little one will soon demand it too. I am so sorry to know you are going through both the joy and sorrow of life and death right now. I was there myself relatively recently and know the rockiness ahead. But there is joy and comfort. take care.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear about your mom. Sending prayers to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteAnna,
ReplyDeleteI am praying that God will engulf you all in his grace, and never let you go. God has blessed your Mama by taking her home. I know it hurts to breath, but do, God loves you. Sending love and healing prayers from Alabama.
I'm so sorry to hear about your Mother, Anna Maria. So, so sorry. Thank you for sharing with us. I'm praying for you and your family.
ReplyDeleteI reread your 'Dream' post and saw it with different eyes now..and marvel at the messages that dreams can bring. Much love to you at this sad, sad time and I wish you peace and strength for the magical time when your baby is born x
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteOh, Anna, your words are beautiful. I am so very sorry for your loss and am sending you love & prayers.
ReplyDeleteAnna Maria...I am broken hearted for you at the loss of your precious mother. By your post, it is abundantly evident that your Mom's life MATTERED, and that is all that any of us dare hope for when our time on Earth has ended. She will always be in your heart and by your side...she will love you forever, as you do her...I am so sorry......
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your loss. My mother experienced the loss of her mother this past October. She was there holding her hand as she took her last breath. Just thinking about my mom and you and how it must feel to witness the end of your mothers life, I just can't stop crying. My mom said she wouldn't have it any other way, that she was grateful to spend those last moments with her to know that Grandma wasn't alone in her passing have her comfort. She's watching over your children and telling your little one on the way how lucky they are to have you for a mom. Hugs. Praying for you and your family during this time.
ReplyDeleteI am so very heartfelt sorry; remember the good times and find comfort in each other through these dark days.
ReplyDeleteHour by hour, day by day...slowly, slowly
Nicky
x
I'm so sorry. Losing a parent is so, so hard. Love to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteI've been praying for you since I realized what was going on.... and will continue to do so. Grief is a strange thing, and everyone goes through it uniquely. I can say from experience that it's doesn't necessarily get "better" per se, but it does get different. It does change.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear of the loss of your dear mother. Wishing you strength and the comfort of family and friends during this most difficult time of loss and anticipation.
ReplyDeleteOh, lovely lady, I am so very very sorry to hear of your loss. I have been through that same experience - holding her hand as she leaves - and I know some of what you must be feeling.
ReplyDeleteTake some comfort, if you can, in knowing that that feeling of her presence seems to strengthen with time, not lessen. I am thinking about you and your family with love and sending strength for when you need it.
Ich habe nur das Bild und die Rosen gesehen und wußte, fühlte mit.... ohne große Worte...Lilu
ReplyDeleteMy prayers are with you. May the Lord hold you close and may you feel it deeply.
ReplyDeleteMy deepest sympathy to you and your family, I just read the passing of your mom, I hope the fond memories will get you through the hard times. For a daughter losing a mother is not easy. Many blessing to you all.
ReplyDeleteSorry for your loss Anna Maria....wishing you and family everything nice in this trial time.
ReplyDeleteTünde from Texas
I am so sorry. I visit your blog often and missed you. I also read your mother's knitting blog. Very sorry.
ReplyDeleteLike you, I was pregnant when we lost my mom. It was gut wrenching, so sad it was scary. I'm so sorry for your loss, may God hold you safe in the cocoon of your beautiful family.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your loss..words aren't much comfort, though, I believe those we love will always live on in our hearts and in the joyful way we live our lives...you truly have a beautiful life filled with love, family,caring and blessings!
ReplyDeleteAnna- may each day bring you comfort in knowing that the memory of your sweet Mother lives on, watching over you, your family and your little daughter to come.xx
may perpetual light shine upon her. . .
ReplyDeleteMuch love to you and your family. What a beautiful woman.
ReplyDeleteSending you and your family love and light. My deepest sympathies.
ReplyDeleteI am truly, sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
ReplyDeleteloving yous in thoughts and prayers. xoxo
ReplyDeleteSending love to you & the family xxxx
ReplyDeleteDeepest sympathy at this difficult time. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeletethinking of you and keeping your family in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to read about your loss and your pain. Your mother must have been so proud of you.
ReplyDeleteI hope that the birth of your baby goes well.
Our thoughts are will you
I'm so so sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry...I know the pain and hurt you feel. My Mother passed 40 years ago when I was just 13 years old. The memories are what I hold on to. Her passing seemed so painful for so long but one day your heart will be filled with memories more clear then than today. God Bless you and yours. Pamie G.
ReplyDeletePraying for strength and peace for you & your family. I know from my own experience that you will never forget all the good things about your mother, even the times during her sickness that you can keep close to your heart.The awful things will finally fade away and you can cling to all the wonderful memories that you all have of and with her. She is a beautiful woman and I can see the spirit in her eyes of love and kindness. Please take care of yourself as you wait the baby.
ReplyDeleteRuby Bundy
I have been reading your blog for quite some time but never commented before. Your post previous to this one, the one about your dream was prophetic...planting flowers by a grave, and a young spirited mare....your mother and your daughter who is waiting to arrive. Even the sapling-small but able to provide protection and given to you by your parents. Your mother is with you as evidence in all these things. When one sheds their body it frees the spirit not to go somewhere but to go everywhere. She is everywhere with you. God bless you.
ReplyDeleteTears for your pain, and for the beauty of all of it. Thank you for sharing.
ReplyDeleteMany prayers to you and your family. I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my grandmother when I was very young, but I can still remember little, wonderful things about her. She sewed, which is one of the reasons I love to sew. Another reason I love to sew is your beautiful fabrics. Thank you for inspiring me so much, your work is just stunning. Take care and God bless-
ReplyDeleteMelissa
I have thought of you so much, prayed for your mama, you, you're family. And I'm just one of so many that only know you through here, but here is so much. And I know the beauty you create, beauty that sits in my home, things I love. You're a dear, special girl, with a dear, special mama. I do know that, and I just pray for you. The Lord bless your delivery, your heart, your family, your father, and just all things.
ReplyDeletePrayers for you and your family, AM.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your loss Anna Maria. I'm going through the same as I lost my mother to cancer on December 1. You are right -- it is devastation and I am still trying to learn how to remember and cherish the memories and love of who she was (and is) to me and my family. I do feel so blessed though that I was with her at the end as she was with me at the beginning. Love and prayers to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteYou are truly blessed to have such a wonderful mother. I am sure she will always be with you. God bless you and your family at this time of deep sorrow.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your loss. Lots of love and prayers to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteI am sending strength to you and your family, from California.
ReplyDeleteAnna Maria,
ReplyDeleteMy heart skipped when I read your news -- I know how much you loved you mama. She is with you always... what a beautiful woman. Peace to you my friend. Holding you close in thought, Marianne Richmond
Sending you and your family prayer, love and strength xx
ReplyDeleteI was so so sorry to hear of the passing of your beautiful Mother. May you and your family find peace and comfort in your wonderful memories of her. Know her spirit is within you and watching over you everyday! My thoughts and prayers are with you, and I'm anxiously awaiting your beautiful baby girl!
ReplyDeleteOh boy, tears here as I read this. I lost my Mama to cancer too and even though 15 long years (and a husband and three babies) have passed since that day, the pain never really goes away.
ReplyDeleteMy heart is with yours. Every blessing as you gently tread this new road.
Melanie.
What a beautiful lady. We will keep her in our prayers. Big hugs for this difficult time and hope that baby will help ease the pain.
ReplyDeleteIf roses grow in heaven,
ReplyDeleteLord pleae pick a bunch for me,
Place them in my Mother's arms
and tell her they're from me.
Tell her I love her and miss her,
and when she turns to smile,
place a kiss upon her cheek
and hold her for awhile.
Because remembering her is easy,
I do it every day,
but there's an ache within my heart
that will never go away.
-Anonymous
Beautiful!
DeleteI'm sorry for your loss. You were both lucky you got to spend so many moments together, even the final ones, full of love. That's the most important thing.
ReplyDeleteSo very sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteIt was wonderful that your mother left this world surrounded by her loved ones. That is what we would wish for every person at the end of their life. You will see that valiant spirit in the lives of your children. My love and good wishes to you all.
ReplyDeleteIm so sorry for your loss and I am happy for your soon to be born baby...carry the legacy!
ReplyDeleteShalom and Blessings for you.
My deepest condolences to you and your family. Many prayers for you all.
ReplyDeleteThis breaks my heart! I am so sorry for your loss. May your mother's memory be eternal and your pain less and less each day.
ReplyDeleteMy heart goes out to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry.
Lots of love to you, especially at this time.
ReplyDeletexoAchaia
My deepest sympathy to you and your family. I know what it is like. I lost my dear, dear mother in December; she lived with me. I still have not gotten over it. We did everything together so it is very lonely. My comfort is that she is with the Lord.
ReplyDeleteI'm so, so, sorry. My heart is hurting for you right now....
ReplyDeleteMy own sweet mom died suddenly just seven months ago and right after the birth of her 13th grandchild. I understand your words completely and I am crying with you at this very moment. I will pray that you will feel the strong hands of God holding you in these difficult days.
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts are with you and your children. Your mama is so close to you and the loss is so hard to bear. however, she will be with you always in all the little things you do and say and you will stop and remember why you do these things. I understand this deep deep sadness and loss and I know there will be many times you will want to be able to talk with her again. I wish for healing thoughts and loving memories for you and all your family. Your new babe will be a joy and will bring light and happiness to her brothers and sisters.
ReplyDeleteSending you love Anna Maria...I lost my dear sweet Mama 13 years ago this August. I tell you this, you will never ever be without her. Sad to not be able to in the ways we once did, but so much of her is in you. Your new baby will be even more welcomed now...what a lovely family you have. xoxo Pam
ReplyDeleteOh Anna-Maria, I knew something had gone wrong as you were not posting. I am so sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteHowever, I am thankful to God that He is graning you that mellow place where grief becomes softer and your mom's memory is a blessing. May she rest in God's arms, and may she bless and protect you, your family and your new baby.
Syllipitiria.
Wishing you all the strength, courage, and love that you and your family need at this sad time. You're so lucky to have had such a wonderful Mama. She will be with you always.
ReplyDeletePraying for you and your family. My mother passed away Mar 22 and it is like it just happened. Everyone says it gets easier but I wonder.
ReplyDeleteHugs.
I am so very sorry to hear of your loss, and for the valley your family is walking through. The way you put it into words here was stunning and beautiful. It is a miracle, how our hearts can hold joy and sorrow simultaneously. So I think of you all as you await the birth of your child, and I pray for God's peace and His strength for you day by day.
ReplyDeleteYou have such a poignant way with words Anna Maria. I'm thinking of you and praying for you, your Mom, your family and you little one in your tummy. I lost my Mom to unspeakable circumstances on April 22, 2012 and the only thing that gives me comfort is that I know she is in heaven and at peace. I have no doubt that your Mom, as mine, looks down upon us and is surrounding us with their love. Faith is tested for sure, but it is amazing the "wonders" that have happened since she left this earth. Look for those signs, because she is with you!
ReplyDeleteOh Anna Maria, I'm so sorry for your loss. I really know your pain, I lost my dear father three years ago and it was such a devastating time. Like you I was pregnant with my daughter, I was sad she did not get to meet him or he to hold her. Anyway, just take each day as it comes. Much love dxx
ReplyDeleteI am so so sorry Anna Maria.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry for your loss. Five years later, I still miss my mother every single day. Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers as well as your newest addition due any day.
ReplyDeleteI am deeply sorry for your loss. Your mother's beautiful. I pray for you and your family.
ReplyDeleteOh Anna Maria, I'm so, so sorry. I can't imagine losing my mother now. Take care and I wish you healing and peace.
ReplyDeleteSending you strength and peace, all the best for you and your sweet family, love and time to heal, to pray and to find your mother's voice in the new silence.
ReplyDeleteI pray with you.
ReplyDeleteLove Martine
I am so sorry to read this. I can't imagine how hard this is. I pray that God will continue to comfort you and give you strength. I'm so glad you have this precious baby to look forward to.
ReplyDeleteWe are with you, and we love you. Heather, TC, and Bee.
ReplyDeleteOh Anna, I am so sorry for your loss! How incredibly painful. Praying for you and your family during this time. xoxo
ReplyDeleteOh Anna I am so sorry for your and your family. Much love to you during this time.
ReplyDeleteEach day you celebrate your family, your husband and children, your craft, your art, you shall be living your mama's dream for you and thus, making her present in your life...Peace and comfort upon you as you take this journey....
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ReplyDeleteI am so, so sorry to hear this sad news. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.
So very sorry for your great loss. Thinking of you and your family.
ReplyDeletemy heart breaks for you...I will pray for peace and God's comfort...Beth
ReplyDeleteMay her memory be eternal.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your loss. May you take comfort in knowing that she is with loved ones who have gone on before her, and that you will be with her again too. I truly believe that. May You and your family be comforted and relish in the birth of your newest miracle.
ReplyDeleteThis is my first time here, came by a pinterest post. I just read about the loss of your mom. Im so sorry. Its been three years and I was just taken back to that last breath, as I was holding her hand, telling her how much I loved her. I wish I could tell you it gets better, some does it does and I can laugh and remember something we both enjoyed. The pain can come swiftly and sharp, when I'd pick up the phone to call her and tell her something funny, and realize her earth body isn't here anymore. So I'd go and walk our special place and tell her then. You never get over missing them, wanting one more day but I hope the love the two of you share keeps your radiance going forever.
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It's been exactly 8 years since I lost my dad while expecting my first child.. his first blood grandchild. While they never met on earth, I am convinced they share a bond in some unexplainable spiritual way. And I am convinced that "Grandpa Martin in Heaven" as we call him is watching over the two babies I never met and keeping them company until we are reunited in eternal salvation. May you feel the comfort of your mother as the guardian angel over you and *all* your children. My heart weeps for the pain you are feeling now, and prays for the bittersweet joy sure to come with the birth of your child. May you feel your mom's presence as you welcome new life. Sending prayers and hugs from Houston.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry - you and your family are in my thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your loss. Your lovely mama made a lovely, creative family. Hugs to you.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry! May the peace of God that passes all understanding keep your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. Bless you
ReplyDeleteI, too, held my beloved mother's hand as she breathed her last on this earth, and my heart has ached ever since with the loss and with such deep gratitude for having had the privilege of being her daughter. Peace and grace to you.
ReplyDeleteAnna Maria, please accept my condolences to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteOver the past year or so I'd been checking your mother's blog hoping for new posts, then I read your post a while back that the cancer had returned. She was included on my prayer list.
I pray that your father, you, your sister and brother and the rest of your family will find comfort in the Lord.
So many warm and kind wishes and prayers are coming your way from all of us who only know you from this place. That loss of such an irreplaceable anchor is staggering. God's gracious and tender blessings to you and your family.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear this news of your loss. May the God of All Comfort grant you peace. New life is coming. Joy will follow tears and sorrow.
ReplyDeleteI'm sending big hugs via this big internet. You and your family are loved and I hope the healing begins soon.
ReplyDeleteVery sorry to hear about your loss. Sending you a big warm hug. Take good care.
ReplyDeleteMy heart aches, no words, just love.
ReplyDeletePeace and Blessings to you and your family in this time.
ReplyDeletePrayers and blessing to you and your family at this sad time. So glad to hear you were able to be with her at her passing. I lost my Mom 9 years ago at this time and then one year to the day after her death we had another lovely grandgirl and a year and a day after her birth another wonderful grandgirl. This is my time of year to think fondly of my Mom and two great grandgirls she never got to meet here on earth. Again you are in our thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteIt's so terrible, but it's nice to not be the only one going through this. I am due soon with twins, the first grandchildren, and we are expecting my dad to pass sooner than later (unexpected and quickly from cancer). Unfortunately I am 20 hours away from Nashville, but I rejoice with you that you are there and could be so supportive!
ReplyDeleteTrust there is a heaven .
ReplyDeleteSome of us were lucky enough to have mothers that we will miss forever. I am not sure how long it takes to process this loss but I hope you find comfort with your eagerly awaited daughter.
What a beautiful picture. She looks so much like you! I pray that you may continue to bask in her light! From your last entry telling of your dream it seems that some part of you already new that great changes were coming. Sending you and your family much strength and love. May God(ess) carry you through this dificult time.
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