Tuesday, September 18, 2012
It is cool outside today. Lovely even, just became sunny a few minutes ago after a lingering cloudiness. A rain through the day, yesterday, most of the night and a surprise little downpour this morning while I was in bed wondering if there was anything better than being in bed. I kept myself very busy with the living room starting Friday and still have a table to paint, some curtain panels to hem, a bookshelf to receive and place and fill, two crafty little homemade light fixtures to hang. Then autumn to do I suppose. I changed around all these things, I thought, out of typical aesthetic preference- simple weariness to that which I've grown accustom. But now that I feel the difference of the space, I realize how much I needed the actual comfort of change. A refresh in the aftermath of a break- really just some broken vases, but maybe it felt like I've broken a little lately too. At least my porcelain feels a little thinner, more fragile. I am a creature that needs to fix, and to mend and to make better. Need it to my core. Broken vases I can sweep up and dump those shattery little noises into the trash. Which doesn't feel like much. But adding a layer of beauty, it feels right. And new. And hopeful.
Today I am greeting the chill with the comforts of my home and those that I love.
love from here, Anna