Thursday, August 23, 2012

Blind Run

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My sweet assistant Pierrette had a birthday yesterday.  I forgot.  My mind has been fuzzy at best. Of course, in her kind way, once it came up, she ran to the rescue of my guilty heart before I could apologize, and gave ME a hug.  The tightest hug. Which was welcome, though I continued to apologize for the rest of the day.  And this bouquet, tucked into her vintage birthday gift, waits for her today.  And cake too.  Two birthdays then, for a one very deserving of both.

Mom & Dad came on Saturday. Mom is receiving treatments here at Vanderbilt for the next 3 weeks.  I could go into to numerous details of her struggle with lymphoma over the past four years, yet all I'd care to say now is that we all feel incredibly fortunate and blessed to have been granted all that we need and more to deal with her specific circumstances.  I say that in regards to family, friends, faith and medical care.  This is the first round of treatments here at Vanderbilt instead of at home for her and of course she'll be staying with us.  I told her yesterday at the hospital that I'm really sorry that I'm enjoying her stay so much.  Because I don't want her here for that.  But I do want her here.  Absorbing all that she is to me, and watching her be the most gracious, thankful, fun person I'll ever know.

Last night I forced myself out on a run with Leo that I didn't feel like taking, but knew I needed.  As we were winding our way into the cool, dusky woods of the trail, I looked intently at the path ahead of me.  I've run it so many times.  I thought to run it with my eyes closed, only holding the leash.  Wondered if I could arrive safely to my place with nothing but trust in the motion of moving forward.  I closed them.  Unafraid.  I ran.  Quite a ways, seeing nothing. 

Then Leo stopped for a pee and the leash almost tore my arm off with a halt.  Likely his own humble way of keeping me from running into a tree.  Good boy.

xoxoxoAM

33 comments:

  1. So important to hold your family and friends close.

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  2. Thank you for sharing this the part especially about running with your eyes closed, unafraid took my breath away...seriously speaks to me on so many levels.

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  3. Having faced a very similiar situation recently in my life, I know today that the most comforting for me today is the love of a family, furry canine friends and all.Thank you for sharing....

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  4. So sorry to hear about your Mom. I'll say a prayer for her (and your family) when I think of you and read your blog.

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  5. All kinds of faith and courage... in your words and acts. (((hugs)))

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  6. My best wishes for your Mom's recovery. Having family right there with them will be a big help for your Mom and Dad. {{hugs}}

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  7. praying for peace and comfort for you and your family. And so nice to have a furry friend to guide you thru the "woods."

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  8. very touching. you will be ok, you will find your way. Heather x

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  9. May the Lord save and protect your Mom though this - and uphold you!

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  10. {{{Hugs to you all!}}}

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  11. prayers for your mom. caretaking is tough too, so, prayers for you.

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  12. Blessings to you and your family during this time. Your description of your run with Leo made me smile. I often wonder if one of my labs will dislocate my shoulder due to something they "need" to do or check out.

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  13. Anonymous5:22 PM

    Prayers for your mom and your family as you go through this.
    Jenn h.

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  14. Anonymous6:20 PM

    Hi Anna hope all goes well for your Mum and the treatment does her well, blessings to you all as you love and support each other.

    Lyn - Brisbane

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  15. I hope you enjoy every moment with your mother. I had too few with mine.

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  16. Tears sprung to my eyes when you described running with your eyes closed. The meaning of those words has such application in life and trust in God. His will, not mine. Your mother is on my prayer list.

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  17. Anonymous9:54 PM

    You end with a beautiful parable AM... Leo and all.

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  18. i think you have just the most loving family, i hope your dear mama gets better very soon, and oh how i wish to be a mama like that(and a mama like you too,for that matter :)).

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  19. Life just goes by so fast,I love how you wrote this post x

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  20. Loving the love, thank you all so much, xoxox Anna & Mom

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  21. I met your mother at the first "quilting bee" for the flood victims of Nashville. She is a sweet and gracious lady. You and your family are truly blessed!

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  22. A couple of years ago, I had a difficult journey as well. I got some colored pencils and a paper and printed out some of your designs. I spent time coloring and healing and it helped a lot. Very special people are in hospitals and doctor's offices and very special people have fabric design and quilting websites.

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  23. My father went through his struggles with lymphoma a few years ago, and it was the love of our family and friends that helped us all through that long road of uncertainty. Luckily his story ended with a full remission, even after the doctors said there was no way he would last the rest of the year... I hope the same for your mother. Please stay positive - God works in ways we could never know! My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. It's amazing how much a moment in time with a cherished pet can unexpectedly help. All my love to you and yours, and a special hug for sweet Leo!

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  24. I am so terribly sorry to hear about your mom but we will keep her and your entire family in our thoughts and prayers! God will lead you and take care of you, blind faith!! Keep the faith!! Hug your mom and Leo!! All my love to you and your family.

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  25. Praying for complete healing--I have two friends who have successfully battled lymphoma--both are LONG time survivors 15 and 20+ years and still going strong. One of them is now a marathon runner at almost 60 yrs. old!

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  26. Anonymous8:21 AM

    Well, that sucks about your mom. But she is still here.

    On April 24, 2012, my mom went into the hospital for treatment of blood clots in her legs. On May 4, 2012, she was dead of ovarian cancer.

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  27. Anon, I am so very sorry. Wishing you healing. xoxoAM

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  28. Anonymous5:00 AM

    Thank you. I'm still stunned. She had no idea that she had ovarian cancer. No one did.

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