Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Me and B

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Whether I like it or not I have over the years become well acquainted with the proverbial plan B. I don't even remember what plan A is on most days. Do I have an A? I forgot to get an A. Where do I get one of those??

hannah

I think really this is the consequence of having so many plans that they can't all be A's. For a few weeks now I've been battling short-light days, rain, cold, and schedules to get going on the photography for my book. I had cleared a day with the lovely Hannah (above bundled in her coat between takes) to do a few (sleeveless) shots on Saturday and the rain was just barely holding off. We were all set, make-up- check, hair- check, camera charged- check, drove out to the farm and started walking to our destination. The camera however had a different plan. The 4 week old fancy pants camera decided it would be the malfunctioning lemon type of camera and forced us to institute plan B. Which was to instead talk on the phone to 3 camera stores, my husband who had the manual in hand and online and the Canon help desk, while beautiful Hannah and I stayed warm in the car. I fought off tears for an hour of on-the-phone consulting only to end up sending my new baby back to the manufacturer and await a new one. Sigh. I tried really hard not to cry. And it worked for a while, then when describing the plan of action to Jeff I squeaked out a bit of a pitiful sob. I really hate poor me scenarios and resist the temptation to feel sorry for myself in light of such good things and people around me. But sometimes. Obviously you know. Looking for good weather now isn't something thats really going to be possible for a while. Not that I want sun necessarily, but when playing hostess/mom/art director/photographer to such sweet and patient girls who are modeling for me, one has to be considerate. Well this one has to be considerate. How many times should we try this only to splish around in puddles?

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So Sunday we threw caution to the wind, rain, and clouds and tried our shoot again with a borrowed camera, my lens, and some of the most precious people I know who continue to remind me that what I am working on is not about perfection. Nothing close. It's about what I love. I don't love perfection. I love my home, my family, my work, my art and most of all that model on the left who came along as a plan B herself when I was 18.

Beautiful things come from failed plans I do believe. I'm just watching all this happen and some days I feel I have very little to do with any of it. Even though here I am doing it all. I guess I wouldn't have it any other way. Just glad there are 25 other letters in the alphabet when A fails me.

xoAM

67 comments:

  1. very cute post, refreshingly true and it happens to us all, especially the crying part for me!

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  2. Oh a good cry! Sometimes it's just the thing to release the tension and stress that builds up in our modern-full-blessed lives, so let loose, release and then move on to plan B. Hey, thanks for keeping it real... I appreciate knowing that I am not alone in falling back on plans B-Z!

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  3. Your plan B at age of 18 just got the best of me ~~ that melted my heart:) Lucky you.

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  4. What a wonderful post! You can't go wrong with an attitude like that - even if you have to go to plan Q!

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  5. You are such a delight to read. Thanks for all the smiles.

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  6. I love it! I don't think artists can be perfectionists...at least not most of us. It's against our nature. The truly beautiful things in life happen organically against what we initially thought of as perfection.

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  7. “The artist who aims at perfection in everything achieves it in nothing.”
    Eugene Delacroix ;-)

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  8. Both of my children are plan B's!!! And I think it all turned out better than planned :)

    Having worked in advertising, just know that no photo shoot ever goes as planned... at least not any I ever knew of!! Your photos will be spectacular because you are!

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  9. Oh my goodness. Your first Plan B is a mini Anna Maria! Seriously, could you have kids that were any more gorgeous! And kind? Lucky mom.

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  10. Anonymous7:20 PM

    Beautiful things from spoiled plans - I call that serendipity! All seems lovely in your world - I say let's all embrace our personal plan b!

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  11. Ow, i am not a crier but the Plan B at eighteen got to me too! I don't know why but that little tidbit makes me so much more inspired by you Anna Maria. I'm a single mom to a little boy and though I was 23 when I had him it was tough because I'd always felt I never wanted kids. Now I'm lucky enough to stay home and work my fingers to the bone creating, just as you do, and it's not often that I take the time to count myself lucky considering all that's happened in my life but this post helped me do just that. Thanks ;)

    PS - Maybe our Plan B's should now start out as our Plan A's...

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  12. I love a positive attitude :)

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  13. maddie8:08 PM

    Inspiring post! Thank you for the reminder...

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  14. Molly Irwin8:41 PM

    Beautiful post. Beautiful words and thoughts and sentiments. It's all so true. And if what you're doing is not perfection, then give me more of that "not perfection" all day long. That's why we love to read your blog and will all buy your book :)

    - Molly

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  15. Kathy9:00 PM

    That's so great! Hurray for plans B, C, & D!

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  16. i've been crying a lot over a plan A that didn't work out as intended. thanks for this post. it's making me think about things a little differently.

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  17. This was the most sweet, sincere post. Your plan b at 18 is one beautiful plan. Just love your sincerity and the inspiration you exude.

    Teresa
    xo

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  18. Anonymous9:48 PM

    Do you realize you just came up with name for your next line of fabrics? Smile...you make the rest of SMILE for sure.

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  19. Beautiful! It's true, Plan B is usually the plan that God had intended for us all along. We're just usually too stubborn to use it in the first place.

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  20. Control is a myth, isn't it?

    I heard a quote somewhere recently: "Don't let perfection stand in the way of progress". I think it's a fine line...

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  21. Sometimes a good cry is all we need.
    I cant wait until your book comes out AM. If you have a book undesigning in Tennessee, I may just have to drive in from Arkansas for you to sign it.
    I cant wait!

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  22. dern spellcheck! That is signing..hehee.

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  23. Inspiring post. I love the optimism. Hooray for the other 25 letters. ~jen~

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  24. in Sweden we have three more letters Å, Ä and Ö, so if all the other 25 fails you, feel free to borrow our extra letters! =)

    truly inspiring post!

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  25. Esther4:12 AM

    Thanks for such an encouraging piece of writing. Things we don't expect can just come out of nowhere and hit us right between the eyes, changing everything, but they are never mistakes just surprises and new adventures!

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  26. THANK GOD for both of our "plan Bs"--two of the most special young women in the whole wide world.
    Mom

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  27. Often enough, plan B is more successful than plan A could have ever been. Like you, I had to deal with plan B at 18. Now he is 15, smarter and more handsome than for his own good. Sometimes - okay quite often lately - he drives me nuts but nevertheless I feel blessed having him in my life !!

    As somebody above already said, hurray for plan B - Z ;O)

    Greetings from Germany
    - Chris

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  28. you are so right. i live in plan b. not even sure there ever was a plan a. i think plan a is what you set out to do and plan b is what happens. because rarely does anything go as we "planned" it.
    thank you for this post. i've been lamenting my life track right now and not knowing how to change it and keep up with at the same time.

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  29. <3 this was a cute post. i can't see the pictures from work, but i'm hoping everything worked out the way you (eventually) wanted!! :)

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  30. Thanks for putting it all into perspective. Plan B's are ok, the world is not falling apart. :) Can't wait for you book!

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  31. plan B always sounds better than plan A anyway lol

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  32. yes, Plan B it is very often. Thank goodness for the moments when we can see just how unexpectedly beautiful that plan has turned out to be!

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  33. You poor thing! I know what it's like on some level to be depending upon technology and have things go wrong. I was asked to film at a summer camp for children who've had cancer. I was supposed to be making a really great informational DVD about the place but that day, the wind covered up all of the interviewees' talking, the kids clammed up on camera and then it rained! It all ended up working out okay though and the kids got a great DVD as a gift (hooray for special effects, music to cover up the wind, voice-overs and still photos).

    I can't wait to see this book! You are such an inspiration.

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  34. Such wise and warm thoughts! That picture of your daughter is absolutely beautiful.

    I put a little post on my blog about this post. It's here...
    http://moderncharm.blogspot.com/2007/11/when-i-grow-up-i-want-to-be-anna-maria.html

    (OK, I'm off to grab a hanky.)

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  35. What a nice post. Thanks for reminding me I don't have to be a perfectionist.

    (and that's OK that you cried, sometimes you just have to let it out!)

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  36. Oh, lady, sometimes indeed. I can SO relate.

    Hope your (new) baby works without a hitch and that things come out if not perfect, then blissful nontheless.

    Could that girl GET any more gorgeous? She looks just like her Mama!

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  37. Holy smokes - I thought that was you in the picture. Your daughter sure looks like you and all the girls are so lovely.

    Plan B. I never thought about terming some things in life as such. Our life turned to a Plan B when our son was born with a serious heart defect. It certainly wasn't what we expected and definitely not what we had hoped for him. But we have moved along with what life has thrown to us and, outside of having a perfect heart, I wouldn't want him to be any different than the sparkling 4-year-old he is.

    Back to you as it is your blog (sorry!) - I think a spillage of tears is human and what everyone needs every now and then. It will help the young ladies who were there to witness your crying so they can see it is alright to let your frustrations show. You've certainly had enough stress lately, even if it is good stress. I cannot wait to see your book. I'm sure it will be as lovely, creative and fun as you appear to be.

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  38. And Plan B almost always turns out better anyway!

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  39. Thank you for this post. Wise words because wonderful things really do come from failed plans. Sometimes plan B makes a better plan A afterall. Hugs to you.

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  40. The weather's beautiful in AZ, perfectly sunny & nice. And there's a pro Canon-user here too. Want to come for a visit?? : )

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  41. Heather! Stop it! It sounds too tempting....I could definitely use a proCanon user around, even just a Canon would be nice at this point...don't be surprised if I show up ;)
    xoAM

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  42. Carrie Mc W1:19 PM

    Plan B is almost always better AND the story of the failed plan A gets better with each telling.

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  43. Tiffany6:16 PM

    Funny you should write this post this week. I know you aren't writing to me...but it felt like it when I was reading it because those are the words of wisdom I need right now. I have an insane amout of sewing to accomplish before this weekend for a craft fair in Franklin. *Of course* my sewing machine would start acting up. Grrrr! So far I've prayed over it, sweared at it, done every troubleshooting tip in the book, and begged it to start working again. It's limping along -- I'm not sure how much longer it will hold out. ((sigh)) So I guess I need to start planning B, C, D...Z.

    Does anyone know where I can get a magic wand?? -that sure helped Cinderella when she was in a jam.

    You should come to the craft fair on Sunday! Go to this site to check it out: www.nashvillecraftmafia.com

    Wishing you sunny skies, fixed cameras, and good alternate plans! :-)

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  44. Beth in East TN7:49 PM

    Kudos to you for admitting your life isn't perfect. I carried my 6year old plan B up to bed tonight and thanked God for the little surprise he gave me when I had 14 month-old twins! After all, when life gives you lemons, aren't you supposed to make lemonade?

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  45. this is just a stunning piece of writing!!! wow!! beautiful things do come from failed plans... well said with such eloquence.

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  46. Loved this post. It was nice to get a full shot of your daughter ... she is a beauty just like her mom.

    I love your positive perspective on life. That's why you're successful!

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  47. Seems nothing every works as planned and "It's a Good Thing" as your buddy Martha would say.

    Oh my, your Plan B melted my heart!

    With friendship,
    Lisa

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  48. Oh yes, let's hear it for plans B, C, AND D (and I've had to use most of them at one point or another). And ya know what? Sometimes those alternate plans -- they work out better than the originals!

    As for your your daughter as plan B -- oh yeah, fantastic!

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  49. j. caroline8:23 PM

    Yeah for Plan B! Your post made me realize I am on Plan B husband and Plan B baby and they are both awesome. Maybe Plan A is just a process and never meant to be a product.

    On a lighter note, I had two Canon cameras break this summer and their repair center is fast. And it was the first time I had to use them in five years.

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  50. "Other"3:02 AM

    Shall I mail a key? :)

    xo--Heather (Bailey)


    Oh look, your comments thing-a-majiggy is only allowing Google/Blogger account comments, no "Other." I'm an other.

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  51. Wow, my dear. I, too, fell apart at your Plan B at eighteen--I was nineteen. Don't even know if putting that thought in was intentional, but your post sure does "hit home" for many. Keep sharing!

    --Barbara

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  52. What a beautiful blog!
    As much as I push for plan A's, I usually end up with a plan B! And like you, it's usually lots better!

    Thanks for sharing!

    love you!
    Alicia

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  53. bernie12:54 PM

    How beautiful plan B is! Thanks for the lovely pics. You're a great mom!

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  54. hi, just found your blog, love it and i really like your pincushions with the flower tops.
    Sarah x

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  55. Your plan B is gorgeous and my plan B (who is also 16 and in Franklin) would be soo cute together. They even look alike. Imagine the talent that could come from that. Can you say "arranged marraige?"

    I'm sooooo kidding, but she is a doll and has dimples just like my Cody!

    It is the season for Plan B's, I've had three mishaps this week. don't fret too much :)

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  56. Very nicely said!

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  57. Thanks so much for the plan B comments. I tend to be wound so tight that plan b freaks me out so much and isn't usually an option. Thanks for helping me understand that sometimes plan B is even better and I should embrace it! :)
    thanks! mary

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